I was sitting outside enjoying the night
time weather about a week ago thinking
about whether or not Dismas regretted
his entire life. We all know at the end of his
life on the cross he expressed sorrow and
remorse, seeking forgiveness from Jesus.
He made it cleared that he lived his life
the wrong way. Perhaps he might of lived the
majority of his life the wrong way, but by
whose standards? The Roman empire’s?
The same empire which allowed gambling
and prostitution amongst its own soldiers?
I sat and pondered this for awhile to the point where
I envisioned myself looking at a scene in
Dismas’s life. What my imagination, or perhaps
my spirit showed me was very intriguing.
I was looking through a crack in a wall where
soldiers were on break, partying with ladies
of the night. I was not focused on the women however,
I was so used to seeing the filth and disguss
that went on in the guard barracks. I wanted to see
who all was on break so I knew who was on duty for
obvious reasons. Some guards were better at spotting
people during the nighttime then others. I couldn’t
help but notice a golden bar on the old wooden table
that beheld 666 imprinted on it. I thought nothing of that
either, never accepting prophecy or anything people
had to say about it. I made up my own fate with my
own decisions. And most of all, how can I regret what
I do when I see filth like this go on every night
with the people who are to look after us. These
guards are our elders and watchers? Pfft..
The golden bar was what I remembered. People’s love
of their money and their pleasure. I could not help but
think that perhaps Dismas couldn’t of helped but not
have any regrets about his life when he saw these things.
To continue his life the way he did, knowing that
he did have a conscious as we all saw at the end of his life,
He had to of known there was evil in the world, maybe just
maybe like the one described above.
This was a short story, I know, and I kind of narrated
it as thought I stepped into Dismas’s life for a few
moments. Its worth considering as well. I do
believe that Dismas was motivated to do some
of the things he did because of bad influences.
And I can’t help but decide that some of those bad
influences were of the golden empire that governed
his era. Even in today’s modern world, with police
officers committing crimes more and more as
they grew in the news, and people rebelling in the
Eastern world overthrowing their own corrupt
government (Egypt, Libya) just who are the ones
to make the decisions in life that will be right.